brain explode after brainstorm

ari ni kat opis brainstorm with franciss, dia suh pk buat a few proposal for reality show yg lain dr apa yg dok ada di tv la ni(banyak show2 yg dia suh pk actaully, american funiest home video punya concept ah, telenovela lah, kartun show ah, semua ni show yg xbest n BUHSAN n xmasuk jiwa me :'( sabar jer ah), idea leh di pk nak merealisasikan jer, bukan senang sbb we are not a TV station, easy for tv station to do though cz they have a lots of facilities plus banyak crew n department, kalo production hse, hurmm setakat kuarkan idea leh ah tenaga kerja xcukup nak buat keje2 yg banyak ni... kdg2 xpaham ngan boss2 besar yg cara depa xleh nak diterima oleh org bawah2 ni, kdg2 boss ni ada yg xpaham dunia brodcasting tp dia kene handle gak department2 yg di luar bidang dia, nak terangkan kat dia kdg2 leh dia paham kdg2 dia xpaham...

franciss jenis garang n moody person, moody dia tahap bahaya, seram nak brainstorm ngan dia actually, tuhan jer tahu betapa banyaknya lah me doa before masuk bilik meeting tadi siang, baca lahaulawallaquwataillahbillahilazim! n selawat bnyk2 subhanallah sabar jer... alhamdullilah meeting going well n dia suh mintak kami org mintak permission from LPF n JAKIM utk bawak masuk satu show kerepek dr INDON cita hantu mcm ghost HUNT, gie satu port yg berhantu, cari org yg berani nak dok situ beberapa jam, n dlm visual akan pakai cam infra red so might can catch hantu punya bayangan. for me! me xsetuju banget, ada unsur syirik! mcm kita nak test power seseorang tu takot ker tak kat hantu! kalo takot leh wave to cam cakap kita surrender n nak quit! kalo berani dok ah situ sampai beberapa jam! apa2 tah show kat indon ni, org non muslims, pk apa jer dia pk sure show tu will HIT n BOOM n sure dpt publisty! me cakap mmg sure glamour ah cita tu n sure akan ramai ustaz2 bg komen gak (me dah terbayang jauh sgt ulamak kuarkan fatwa n etc pasal show ni nanti :'( huk2 uwwarghh)! n mr francs said yeah that wat we want wat! adoi! tension keje! xleh nak terima dah gaya hidup keje ngan TV!Pikiran KU totaly diff with them!hati mmg xtenaNg 24 bila gie keje , tuhan jer tahu camne me dok rasa! n dia tanya lagi apa pendapat kami2, me nak jer jawab ada unsur education ker yg leh educated viewers? but my boss yg kuarkan pendapat dia me n others senyap jer, malas nak cakap biar boss department yg cakap banyak huhu, tp abih jer meeting me cakap kat boss dept me wat i wanna say to franciss, n my boss said sure franciss will answer u back like this"like now ...in tv we have program yg can educated viewers? u tell me?!" sigh GRIN AUMMM tarak show yg educative! semua entertainment! uwarghhh xsabar nak dpt keje lain :"( jiwa ku xsesuai lagi utk dunia TV ni dah! dulu2 masa me mula keje ngan dunia tv mmg me suka, xlama lepas tu me dah rasa eh aku salah masuk bidang ni! kenapa ah aku masuk bidang keje n study mcm ni! xsesuai ngan jiwa!walaupun suka waktu dulu2 (masa muda2 dulu), la ni taste dah lain!hurmm...........................

conclusion buat masa terdekat ni! sabar noor afzan sabar! PK PK PK tenang! n cari keje lain dgn banyaknya lagik!Jgn depressed jgn stresskan diri anda lagik! relax, respon n respect diri anda! :-D CHEAR UP SAYANG!THINK WISE! (hehe me tgh think postive way ni huhu)

deep inside my heart said!

Aku: ni kifarah tuhan terhadap diriku!usaha cari keje lain n doa2!