my life hurm

last nite
cried a lot, why? cz me did try to tahan since last saturday, masa nenek sedara me meninggal dunia, lawat kubur abah with all my cousin belah abah, masa tu felt like wanna cry a lot but still can tahan, but last nite really me cried a lot...why? cz feel lil bit down with my self! i didnt reach my goal yet :'( me suxs feel like me just still lil me, lil noor afzan :'( didnt do gud things much... have to work more harder though!its not easy to reach our goal, sum ppl they just lucky cz can reach their goal at young age....me now already reach 26! feel sux cz didnt reach anything yet sob!

last sundy n monday
me was in abah kpg, feel extreamly syahdu all the time cz the vibration of abah still around me, subhanallah, even dah lama abah tinggalkan me, me still can rasa the sadness guaner tu? masa tu ah me hadapi keadaan yg sgt sedih n me mmg kene lawan kesedihan yg dtg tu, malu ah nak nagis depan makcik2 tu so me tahannnn so last nite cant tahan anymore :'( mata sembab sepet bertambah sepet... masuk opis semua org ingat me bangun lambat padahal me cried!subhanallah fear n sadness really 2 benda yg besar utk me hadapi dlm kehidupan me!fear with untie2 yg garang2 dan have to face sad feeling subhanallah its hard tapi me pelan2 hadapi... mak me ingat me tension sbb keje me, tapi mak xtahu sebenarnya me nagis sbb feel down with my own self somemore untie2 sebok tanya when im goanna get married... subhanallah mmg ah me nak kawin, cuma xketemu with men to married with yet, depa ingat me xnak kawin n cakap mcm2 to me :'( me sabar jer ah mendengar... sabar2 sbb dah lama xbalik kan so kene ah sabar mendengar bebelan masing2 :'( cer carikan suami utk me? kan senang! depa xtahu yg anak sedara dia asyik breakoff, me xusaha? usaha dah! cuma belum waktunya lagi... nanti dah tiba waktu maka berlangsung ah ia InshAllah.

tu ah dia, sumtimes hard to explain wat we feel! when ppl see us they think abt sumthing else, always have wrong prediction sangka buruks
:( hurm sabar jer ah!